Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Jan 7, 2016

Hey ^_^ 

It's been 2 years since I last blogged. Time really flies so fast without us knowing. Somehow those times when I thought it would have been better if I was dead, did not really matter to me now. 

The past 4 years had brought me nothing but tiredness. I felt tired easily, probably have some symptoms of chronic fatigue syndrome. Need to get some diagnosis and treatments done if that was the case. 

When everyone you meet starts asking you what do you want to study, what's your path, what are the plans you got for this year its 2016 etc etc etc... ... I don't know about you. But I have no idea what am I going to do with my life. I know I'll have to take responsibility for using the family's money, and to take care of myself and my family in the near future. guess that's what quarter-life crisis is all about. 

I thought I wasn't the kind of person to get depressed easily, maybe I did, at least I was always feeling anxious for the past 2 years. I didn't seek for help, didn't go to school, all I did was I went to work and work until I was tired so I don't think about what's gonna happened the next day, not to worry about asking living expenses from dad since I was using my own money. You know they say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I don't know if that's true. But I felt like I've been making friends and talking to lot more people ever since. Rather than staying at home errr' day like what happened to me when I was a jaffy. 

So many things to think about
 omg that's me 8 years ago so hamsap the face 
and Kuching has the best sunset you will ever see!

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